[WeWereInfinite]

The Secret Game is a game where you tell secrets you've never told before. This started after my friends played it and found out things they never knew. My friend made a livejournal entry from it and was astonished to find how many people commented with secrets. So I did it too.

I started the game rolling by revealing one of my secrets, so people don't feel as shy.

My secret: I cut for about 3 years. Around 9th grade it got so bad you couldn't even see my arms anymore. And it wasn't for attention or because I was emo...And everytime I hear someone joke about it, I want to do it. Ironic, huh?
I didn't stop because I knew it was the right thing to do. I stopped because Michael, my long term boyfriend of almost 3 years now, said he'd leave, because the stress became too much. He couldn't watch me hurt myself anymore.
And I love him for it everyday.

Hopefully, some of you will play this game.

::Waycos Edit:: New game rule. No one can post anything about anyone else's secret. This isn't the bad day, if you want some advice or consoling do it in that thread or in a new one. This way people don't need to worry about if they should or what they could post here. And #1 rule, no judging!!

[Cuban_Baby]

Well were this three years ago I'd tell ya all that I really like guys as well as chicks! But read enough of my posts and well...

Hrm... Oh here we go, I have the bad habit of stealing money from my parents, and I used to from anyone who left a wallet within arms reach. I've since reformed, but I'm still repairing the damage done... >_<

[WeWereInfinite]

That's interesting.

Postsecret the page where the inspiration came from updates every sunday.

Heres 1 or 2 that I liked from today.

[Varstie-kun]

I've gone to public events (free concerts, festivals, parades) convincingly dressed as a boy without anyone, except the three friends I was escorting, knowing or recognizing me to keep nasty old men and violent young drunks off them. It was really invigorating to be macho and have people let them be because there was a 'man' with them.

[Toreshi]

I'm game.

Okay, lesse....

My ex-boyfriend (the one who tore my heart to shreads) stupidly told me his e-mail password and then never changed it. So after he broke up with me I almost daily checked his e-mail for some tiny shred of evidence of anything: that he'd be cheating on me, that there was some ulterior motive to the breakup, that he still loved me, whatever.

It was only after I started hanging around with my current boyfriend that I realized my obsession was stupid and pointless, and I kind've felt like a little mental for doing it for so long.

[I_SitAtTheKidsTable]

I'm a total tomboy, unless I'm swimming i'm always in sneakers. I wouldn't touch make-up other then lip balm, or nailpolish.
So no one really knows it, and no one would suspect it, but I always wear toenail polish.

Pretty tame I know, but thats all I got for now.

[Scarlet Speedster]

I would rather be a firefighter or a mechanic, but my greed and materialism forces me to work towards a higher paying job that I may or may not enjoy.

[yoshida]

So two out of four jailbait nominees have 'issues'?
Let me say I'd be busted the instant a law enforcer reads my secrets, and some of you may yell at me from time to time if I told them here. I'm as immoral by nature as some claim most people to be, not to mention selfrighteous.
That, and seeing a fourteen year old girl when I was sixteen, leaves plenty to imagination, plenty to be told, but frankly you don't wanna know. (fortunatly she knew where to draw the line better than I did...)

OK pretend you never read the last two alineas. My 'safest' secret is that I like swords, and I have one really sharp machette (which I sharpened myself). In this country you may own a knife with a blade of maximum three inches, and the blade on my machette is close to twelve. Given proper incentive I'd use it for homicidal purposes while I believe no one should be allowed to take another man's life ever. I never threatened anyone but I could so see me snap and kill a man.

[Useless Trivia Man]

I'll never, ever be able to forgive myself for the pain I've caused.


I'll never be as great as he is.


I'm terrified that one day she'll wake up and realize that she's far better than I deserve.

[yoshida]

c'mon, we know better than that UTM
But yeah, you just summed up three of humanities greatest worries. We're just human after all.

This one's for comforting purposes. I'm not going to comment in this thread again.

[FutbolDude21586]

Mmk... no one but me and my shrinks know... but a ton of people have guessed, I've just never said negatory or positive on the case...

I cut, abuse painkillers and burned myself daily for 6 years. I stopped only because I stopped being able to hide it anymore. Now most of the scars have disappeared.

[Waycos]

My worst tend to all deal with my sister. I often wonder or imagine what it would be like if she died. And although I do a lot for her, I probably neglect and resent her more then I should.

edit: Maybe fantisize would be a better word for it.

[Katiz]

It kills me the sacrifices my parents made for me, and I'm so afraid that my sucesses won't justify the troubles they've been through. I'm their golden child, but I don't think I deserve to have been so privileged.

Okay, how about a less serious one: Recently I had a very erotic dream about my history professor, and now I can't stop fantasizing about her (NOT a good thing to tell anyone about)

[Magic Sarah]

Ever since i was younger I've loved education. As i've reached my GCSE's (passing them all with C and above) and then onto college i've wanted to learn more and more. Onto University.. As high as I can go. I have a thirst.

My older borther whos currently 23, got his GCSE's and went straight into work. His money has slowly raised over each year and he's veyr happy were he is. He's had no debt, he still lives here so no morgage.

To my parents he did it the 'right way'. He didn't get into lots of debt, he didn't move out unecessarily. And week after week we argue over it. Argue over how, to them, university fees are pointless, the whole concept is pointless. Me not not moving out when I *do* go to university, because thats another cost.

And everytime we talk about it, I can see in my mums eyes she's dissapointed. Dissapointed that i've decided some sort of wussy way out. And not stuck into work like my brother. She'll always be prouder of him I think.

[machetejack]

I hate to admit it, and It doesn't sound that serious, but I'm a Horrendously Selfish person. It's one of the things I absolutly hate about myself.

And UTM, I'll never be as good as him either.

MJ

[draegerMKV]

Quick thing for those who want keep these as secrets and conceal their identity--on Sinfest forums (which I lurk on) they have a similar thread but this is how they do it: someone essentially moderates the thread and has an email account set up in which people can anonymously send their secrets, which the 'mod' then puts up on this thread. I'd volunteer if no one else steps up but I tend to be kinda lazy and forgetful about such stuff--but if people want me to I will.

Also, if your email is kinda obvious who you are (same as your handle or whatever,) I of course would keep confidentiality but you can also create temporary email addresses through a host of sites online (such as http://www.mailinator.com/) if you would prefer to do as such.

[Catalyst]

My secret: I cut for about 3 years. Around 9th grade it got so bad you couldn't even see my arms anymore. And it wasn't for attention or because I was emo...

Reason?



My secret: When I look at porn, it's mostly asian or latin chicks. That's all for now.

[Cuban_Baby]

A *HUG* for everyone posting here (I'm amazed that we're not all on happy pills) and a second secret,

2) Dispite the fact that I'm Bi and really enjoy the more...physical.. aspects of both sexes, I deeply fear that if I enjoy sex with a guy I'll become less of a person.

[Waycos]

... if I enjoy sex with a guy I'll become less of a person.

But you'll have twice the wardrobe.

[nicofiend]

... if I enjoy sex with a guy I'll become less of a person.

But you'll have twice the wardrobe.

Thank you Waycos. I needed a good laugh.

Secret: I still have no idea what all I did from Oct of '02 till Aug of '03.